The Crossroad.

I have noticed a pattern in my life. It is something along the lines of... I am climbing a mountain. Higher and higher. Eating, sleeping, and breathing the intensity of the journey my climb has put me on. I live for it. I focus all of my energy into it.. and then I am at the top. Then comes the part where I reach a height that puts me in the position to make a decision. A now or never decision. I can A.) Leap from this mountain unknown to what is awaiting me at the bottom or I can B.) Accept that I have reached my destination and attempt to stay at it. Only I have come to learn that each time I have chosen to be complacent in my destination.. I tumble straight down the mountain just to find myself in the same position of wanting to REACH higher. In my 23 years I have found that to exist beyond the material mindset of "keeping up with the Joneses" we must allow our minds to be consumed by the feelings "the climb" gives us and once we reach the top...LEAP! Life is ever changing. We dig to discover meaning..we find happiness.. we feel fulfilled BUT we must continuously reach higher. The crossroad comes when we have seemingly outdone our self. When we have overcome a fear or aaccomplished something that we felt was out of reach. As quickly as we have obtained these spiritual, mental and emotional riches we can lose them by choosing to believe that we can go no higher. The negative feelings come when we feel we have gone as far as we can go and that our efforts were enough to last a life time and that our current circumstances own us. The truth of the matter is that nobody defines how far anyone may go. We choose this distance. We decide to give in and believe, "this is it." and we decide to take that LEAP and discover deeper meaning with each moment and each person. On multiple occasions in my life I have let someone else tell me that I had reached my peak. I allowed their thoughts and fears to mold my dedication to what I wanted. I believed the "this is it" mindset. I realized that these moments are my crossroads. These moments are the deciding factor to what is ahead of me. If I don't leap when it is seemingly questionable than I am passing up the opportunity to open new doors and to reach a new level of enlightenment. I made a promise to myself when I was pregnant with Emery. I would know longer have a complacent mindset. I would continuously set new goals. BUST MY ASS to reach them and then set more! No longer will I go backwards. I refuse to start from the bottom again. It is nothing but up from here! I will make conscious decisions concerning my spirituality,wealth, and physical, mental, spiritual, & emotional health. These decisions will to go beyond what I am told. These decisions will be based off of my intentions to teach my children to live passionately and purposefully. My new mindset is that my life is much like a triathlon. I will climb.. I will leap... and then I will swim..and then i will run and then I will bike AND I WILL NEVER EVER STOP pushing the limits of my mind, body, and soul! :)


One of my most recent crossroads:
1.) Shop & eat as always due to cost or bite the bullet and spend whatever it takes to eat healthy,organic, and toxin free.
CHOICE- Bite the bullet. I thought I would feel as though we were missing out by not having as much money. I was wrong. We work harder. We make more to be able to stay healthy and save and spend a little too! It is funny how we have the ability to create pathways and make things work when we make that decision to truly go all out for it!!!

When in doubt GO FOR IT! (as long as your intentions are good but that is a different blog on a different night ;)